By the point you obtain this I can be lifeless. Hopefully not lifeless lifeless, however shut sufficient. And for a very long time. A lot of the stasis tubes had been broken within the explosion, together with practically every little thing else, however SpaceCorp assures me the jury-rig will work and I’ll go into cold-sleep.
They inform me there’s quite a lot of public curiosity in my story. I’m unsure why. This isn’t the primary accident in area and it received’t be the final, however SpaceCorp says persons are and I ought to file this earlier than I’m going into stasis. So right here I’m.
SpaceCorp doesn’t but know precisely how lengthy I’ll should be in cold-sleep. The ship’s nonetheless tumbling and venting air from someplace, in order that they haven’t been capable of get an excellent repair on her new orbit. I’m nonetheless making an attempt to stabilize the ship with what’s left of her manoeuvring gas.
They are saying they’ll determine the brand new orbit quickly. However not earlier than I run out of air and have to enter the tube. I’m guessing it’s going to be an extended one, so until SpaceCorp can determine a method to come get me in a rush, I don’t suppose I’ll be again any time quickly. So shut sufficient to lifeless lifeless.
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I handed Jupiter’s orbit simply earlier than beginning this recording. The planet was too distant — our new orbit meant we couldn’t make the rendezvous, so the station there couldn’t assist. They’re monitoring me, however they will’t attain me.
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Somebody informed me that I’ll quickly make it farther than anybody has ever been from Earth. They stated I ought to really feel happy with that, but it surely’s not like I had something to do with it — and I actually didn’t wish to break that file. All I did was survive the explosion.
Talking of which, I assume I ought to let you understand that Dal, Sara and Gideon are safe in maintain two. I attempted to be as light as potential after I moved them there. I couldn’t get to Alex. I don’t suppose there’d be a lot left of her anyway. I’m sorry. Inform their households they had been … they had been … Inform them I’m sorry this occurred to them. If it helps, I don’t suppose they’d time to know what was occurring.
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The psychs maintain asking me how I’m feeling about this, however between making an attempt to stabilize the ship, repairing the stasis tube, transferring the … getting every little thing achieved, I haven’t actually let myself give it some thought. I assume I needs to be scared. I imply, I am scared, however not as a lot as you may suppose. I used to be a lot scareder — extra scared — when the Ares Olympus collided with the Sirius. And I used to be much more frightened throughout my first raise off. I do know I used to be speculated to be enthusiastic about that, however I used to be simply terrified. That is truly the third main accident I’ve been in since I joined the corps. Perhaps it’s me. However I made it by these. And I’ll make it by this one. By some means.
I assume what I’m feeling essentially the most is unhappiness. I’m not leaving lots of people behind, however I’ll miss them. I’ve recorded a few non-public messages, however I haven’t despatched them but. I’m probably not certain if I’ll. I assume I ought to.
I’m unhappy for the others within the crew. And their households. SpaceCorp remains to be saying they hope to rescue me, however let’s be sincere, if — when — I lastly get again to the internal system, the world I do know can be gone. You by no means know, issues is likely to be actually cool. Nevertheless it received’t be the identical and I kinda like the way in which issues at the moment are.
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